Chapstick Is Not Always Fun

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Chapstickisfun

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Today:

Got out of bed at about nine forty five...reluctantly..

I had some breakfeast and checked my email..did all the normal goings on of every morning. But upon checking my capital one account I noticed that they fucked up yet another one of my payments..this is the last straw. If you do not have a credit card with capital one...STAY AWAY...They are rediculous! After being as rude as I possibly could it has been straightened out. But it still would have been nice if they had done it properly in the first place. But then again, I don't think they enjoy that way too much.. :headbang:

I talked to Alex (ex-fiancees sister) coz she just had a baby. :clap: His name is Paul Alexander Rainey. She is doing well and I will post pictures as soon as I receive them.

I am now about to go buy some new sheets and pillows. The sheets have had it..I need a darker color. I am thinking dark brown. It will accent the other warm colors. I also need pillows..wow this is a boring entry..I am gonna go...I do not have much to write about right now. :huh:
 
I know it was so boring I had absolutely nothing to write about and was in a huge hurry to go see the baby.

My halloween was not that fun. Didn't suck just didn't rock either. We did get a Shaun who had a hand made cricket bat he fashioned that evening. We thought of you :yes:

It has also been brought to my attention that people on the whole are just scuzzy and foul and untrustworthy. I really love it when someone is trusted with extremely personal information of a very sensitive matter and just decide that they will tell whoever they think has a right to know. Thanks.

I went to see Alex and her new baby boy yesterday. It was wonderful, he is beautiful and she is already almost as skinny as she was before she was pregnant and all is well. It made me kinda sad though but I am OK now. I was just in a funk the rest of the night hence the Halloween that did not rock. I did get a new wallet though.

Anywho, I have to get ready for work :ill: I don't want to go but unfortunately my future depends on my paycheck friday. Promise it will get more interesting. Maybe I will just put some stuff from my old blog elsewhere here. I could put a really mushy one and embarass a certain someone. :shifty:
 
I concur with Cakatoa. Embarassment is the best course of action, by far.

And :hug: for yesterday. I don't care what anyone says, you're awesome and if OPA ever treats you like less than a fucking princess, knee him in the balls twice for me. ^_^







IGEdit: I cannot spell "embarassment" correctly the first time. But only on November first.
 
Why thank you ladies. And I dunno about the blog. It is very mushy and sweet..I am still mulling..

Also I do not know how many of you are religious or not but my Student Pastor from high school and college is very ill. He is very close to my heart and has helped me through so much over the course of time we have known each other. He is amazing person who cares so much for the kids he counsels. He has a heart condition that has caused several hospital stays. He is doing a little better, but last night we were walking up some steps and he had a really hard getting up all of them. He is only 35 :( I just ask if you are religious or even if you aren't and want to do something nice for an incredible person, is that you pray for him. His name is David. He has two children, a girl who is five and a boy who is two and a wonderful wife. We all want to see him better so he can continue to be the wonderful person and friend to us he has always been.

OK enough serious stuff for now.

I was feeling better and then Dylan gave me a sore throat again. Douche. :mad: Will this cold ever go away???? I hate having a cold, my head is all swimmy and heavy and imbalanced. I tripped like five times yesterday at work.

And don't worry Chels, he usually does treat me somewhat to that effect..NOW anyways. :P Alright well I have to go look for Dylan's wallet, because I think he may have left it here.
 
And the drum roll please:

Post Date: Oct. 20th.

... Despite all the hardships he and I have endured this year-most of which we dragged ourselves through willingly-we are still together and are still just as in love with each other, if not more so, than we were when we started out almost two years ago. It has also occurred to me that something I thought of relationships such as these for a long time has been inaccurate. I have always thought it to be easier to simply stay with a person when there is trouble. I have always dreaded the "inevitable break-up", the eventual wearing down of something the two have created out of a simple need to be desired. But lately I have found that I have become too cynical and bitter. I have found it is actually much harder to stay together. I have found sometimes things happen that are out of your hands, and as easy as it would be to leave and be angry for the rest of your life, you stay because you truly realize how much you love each other. You realize how hard it will be to stay together through such a thing, but then you realize how worth it the fighting would be. I guess this divine revelation of mine simply supports the decision to stick with this thing he and I have created and have continued to change and shape. I have grown so much over the past two years and he has also. We would appear to be the same as we started to average onlooker, but when a magnifying glass is presented you see the intimacy that has appeared from our time together. You see the comfort we find in each other's presence and the understanding that although different, we are the same. Although I do not find it a necessity to defend our relationship or the nature of it to anyone anymore, I find it necessary to write how I feel at the moment to completely take in the seriousness of the past few months.

In short I have realized this: I will never stop learning him, no matter how close to him I may feel. I will never grow tired of his constant shifts, because it will offset my desire to stay the same. I will never grow tired of his arms being the arms that hold me, despite any mistakes or troubles we have experienced over these two years. I have simply realized that he is the one that was sent to me. He is the one I want to make my life with and he is the one I want to grow with, and share with, and create with. He is the one who I want to support me through life and I him. I have always looked at our lives together as the dream I have had for so long. Now I look at it as it will really be. A journey, a lesson, and a fight. Our life together will not always be that dream I have inside my heart, but the fighting and troubles we go through to protect that dream I have will always be worth it.
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There you go boys and girls. ...I hope I don't get in trouble :o
 
This weekend was great. I got to spend my entire weekend with Dylan, ate a humongous hamburger and then ate a huge steak the very next day. Watched some movies, watched the Jaguars kill the Titans(football), and lots of other fun stuff that no one really cares about :P It was very nice though, I love it when we spend the weekend together, it is nice..

Work was OK but I need to start looking for something else because the father is getting annoyed that I still live at home, I make minimum wage, and I am not able to get health insurance. So the search continues.

I have to go to work soon and I do not feel like it. *sigh*

I have to find a new job because apparently my father thinks I am blowing all my money on lord knows what..whatever you can get on a minimum wage paying job. Anyhow...I need to move out of the parents house coz I am no longer a baby....and I am tired of having to wait until one of our parents goes out of town to spend the weekend together...we are too old for that...well I am going to go to bed.
 
This morning has been crappy..I feel like throwing a book at the wall..i am going to go vote and then I am going to work. What a lovely day that will be.
 
So today was pretty crappy. It was OK a little bit in the middle. When he was done being mean...

I was asked to come into work this morning on my day off last night and I said OK against my better wishes. Well, my coworker Nikki calls me and tells me we are slow and since Mary is coming in at noon I didn't need to come in until the afternoon. And that was just for my benefit because I always need extra hours since I make no money.

Anywho, when I arrived at work my manager was like " Um I don't really need you now, Amber". So I tell her I was just there to work on my section and she wouldn't let me work. That's nice. I tell you I really work for a great company. They don't pay me overtime if I work over forty hours, they do not offer medical insurance so if I get sick or hurt I am screwed, I don't think they have worker's compensation which is especially great since you legally have to have that if you have employees and there are now only four employees total so we don't get any time off which means that when my family goes up north for Christmas this year for the first time since I was fourteen, I have to stay at home in Florida and in crappy Florida winter weather. GRRRRRRRRRR It is not worth it to stay here. I do not make enough money and there is no way to advance to a better position because there are no other positions..(It is a locally owned business) And raises are out of the question because they don't make any money so a girl who has been working there over two years gets a raise from the manager who pays it out of her pocket coz the owner is unwilling to raise wages.

Speaking of raising wages, minimum wage goes up this month and they had no idea! I asked when and they acted like I'd said Jesus was gay. They were stunned like I had run over their dog. I swear I am so irritated.

So now I am looking for a call center job but my best friend says if I work where she works I may have to work until midnight every shift which would suck. I would never see Dylan or my family or any other friends for that matter. I dunno. I just wish I could find a decent job that's all.

:headbang: <---Is how I feel.

And I do not know whether or not plans to move out should be made after today which is frustrating. I want to believe he is ready for it but for some reason I doubt it now..

Maybe when the weather clears up it wont be so gloomy here.

On the upside I voted today. I love to vote. It is exciting to me. I really hope the democratic nominee wins this time because our educational system is one of the worst in the country and the republican canditate has stated numerous times that he plans to make no changes to the educational system. Maybe the teachers will go out and vote. That would be nice.

On the upside again I get to watch Gilmore Girls with my mom and sister tonight. :D

Maybe it wont be so bad.

but then again maybe life is a pigsty.
 
Chapstickisfun:
I would never see Dylan
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you say that like its a bad thing

Anyway i know how you feel about the lousy work thing. the other day i got accused of stealing a crapload of cash from my work (the amount was twice my annual salary) and then they ask me to work more shifts. WHA?

Hope today has been radder for you
 
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Chapstickisfun:
On the upside again I get to watch Gilmore Girls...
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I shall be watching it too. I must say the new Rory is not enjoyable. But atleast Veronica Mars is on afterwards. Hooray for the CW and Rob Thomas.

Sorry about your craptastic day. Life's a bitch. :hug:
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Thank you. I am not sure what I think of this season yet. Thank you very much..I hope my day gets better...it just got potentially worse about ten minutes ago.
 
Chapstickisfun:
Monumental Proportions:
Chapstickisfun:
On the upside again I get to watch Gilmore Girls...
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I shall be watching it too. I must say the new Rory is not enjoyable. But atleast Veronica Mars is on afterwards. Hooray for the CW and Rob Thomas.

Sorry about your craptastic day. Life's a bitch. :hug:
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Thank you. I am not sure what I think of this season yet. Thank you very much..I hope my day gets better...it just got potentially worse about ten minutes ago.
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Well then this call for backup.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

Fall has always been a season that throws people off. Kids go back to, and have to adjust to, school after three months of being general asses at malls, and the weather drops.

It's like Nature's depression.
 
Actually, it's because of my mom. She got me hooked on it back when it was good and they made many good cultural references. now I just watch it for the sake on continuity, and so that I don't miss any of Veronica Mars.
 
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