I don't mean to be that person who incites conflict, but I think it is important that we have the freedom to discuss issues in our region.
Almost 5 months ago now, I made the decision to get up and leave The North Pacific. I was tired of people attacking me over literally every possible thing, when previous Speakers were considered some of the greatest people around and my own Deputy Speaker receiving vast swaths of support over me; with people failing to note that:
1. My Deputies, while trained in most things, still had a ways to go before they fully understood the office
2. While I as Speaker, did my best to take blame for things, the reality was that many of the Office's mistakes under my leadership were as a result of something my Deputies did because they were still learning how things worked.
But something kept me from leaving permanently. Despite the small group of people out there who sought nothing other than to destroy my image and any of my attempts at apologizing for the mistakes that I did make, there were still so many here who I enjoyed the company of. So a month later, I came back here.
Upon returning, instead of being welcomed back, my strongest critics decided to attack me. Lord Lore tried to publicly guilt me, actually criticizing me for coming back. And Syrixia who had said they wished to see me soon, also vehemently attacked me. Luckily though, this being TNP, there were some nice folks who came out to defend me. After the Delegate ended up locking the thread, calling it 'inappropriate', I thought people would be more reasonable. And many were. But that same small group of people continued spreading their message of hate.
Shortly after rejoining, Darcania also rejoined, but unlike me received a big welcome back into the community, despite his own circumstances right before leaving (see here).
Two months after rejoining, I decided to run for Delegate. I knew it was a long shot, but I thought it would be worth a try. Immediately after posting my campaign thread, I could soon see the contrast between my campaign and those of others. I had the same qualifications, had in many cases been in TNP longer than them, and ran a similar campaign (albeit, with a number of different ideas), but while other campaigns were getting praise for running and messages of good luck, I was being questioned by the same people who had been criticizing me for every little thing in the past. Now I don't mind questions. In fact, I think it's important that there is a culture in which we can freely ask them. But these questions were quite clearly designed to veer people away from my campaign and further stain my reputation. Take Syrixia's post for instance. Rather than asking me a single question actually related to or about my campaign, they grilled me about my time as Speaker, a time that I had already answered for previously many times (including in the previous election campaign thread where I had also gone so far as to post a public apology, acknowledging my mistakes). Curiously enough, after responding to their questions during this election, they never posted anything further in my campaign.
I apologize for the rant; I just wanted to help people understand my side of the story better and be able to come to their own conclusions regarding these events. I also realize that it has been a while now since these events occurred and to many, hearing about this is getting old. Rest assured though; this should be the last time you hear about this.
I know there will probably be a select few who choose to attack every point of this, but this is not a rebuttal thread, it is simply a rant explaining my side of the story.
Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read this whole thing (I know it's a bit long).
ABC
Almost 5 months ago now, I made the decision to get up and leave The North Pacific. I was tired of people attacking me over literally every possible thing, when previous Speakers were considered some of the greatest people around and my own Deputy Speaker receiving vast swaths of support over me; with people failing to note that:
1. My Deputies, while trained in most things, still had a ways to go before they fully understood the office
2. While I as Speaker, did my best to take blame for things, the reality was that many of the Office's mistakes under my leadership were as a result of something my Deputies did because they were still learning how things worked.
But something kept me from leaving permanently. Despite the small group of people out there who sought nothing other than to destroy my image and any of my attempts at apologizing for the mistakes that I did make, there were still so many here who I enjoyed the company of. So a month later, I came back here.
Upon returning, instead of being welcomed back, my strongest critics decided to attack me. Lord Lore tried to publicly guilt me, actually criticizing me for coming back. And Syrixia who had said they wished to see me soon, also vehemently attacked me. Luckily though, this being TNP, there were some nice folks who came out to defend me. After the Delegate ended up locking the thread, calling it 'inappropriate', I thought people would be more reasonable. And many were. But that same small group of people continued spreading their message of hate.
Shortly after rejoining, Darcania also rejoined, but unlike me received a big welcome back into the community, despite his own circumstances right before leaving (see here).
Two months after rejoining, I decided to run for Delegate. I knew it was a long shot, but I thought it would be worth a try. Immediately after posting my campaign thread, I could soon see the contrast between my campaign and those of others. I had the same qualifications, had in many cases been in TNP longer than them, and ran a similar campaign (albeit, with a number of different ideas), but while other campaigns were getting praise for running and messages of good luck, I was being questioned by the same people who had been criticizing me for every little thing in the past. Now I don't mind questions. In fact, I think it's important that there is a culture in which we can freely ask them. But these questions were quite clearly designed to veer people away from my campaign and further stain my reputation. Take Syrixia's post for instance. Rather than asking me a single question actually related to or about my campaign, they grilled me about my time as Speaker, a time that I had already answered for previously many times (including in the previous election campaign thread where I had also gone so far as to post a public apology, acknowledging my mistakes). Curiously enough, after responding to their questions during this election, they never posted anything further in my campaign.
I apologize for the rant; I just wanted to help people understand my side of the story better and be able to come to their own conclusions regarding these events. I also realize that it has been a while now since these events occurred and to many, hearing about this is getting old. Rest assured though; this should be the last time you hear about this.
I know there will probably be a select few who choose to attack every point of this, but this is not a rebuttal thread, it is simply a rant explaining my side of the story.
Thank you to anyone who actually took the time to read this whole thing (I know it's a bit long).
ABC