I suppose I should explain something to you all about what's been going on for me in the past 2 days. These 2 days alone have actually changed my outlook on life and my lifestyle. And I've had 2 days to think about this post before making it.
As many of you have often seen before, unfortunately, when I get emotional or stressed, I tend to act rashly. It seems childish, I know, and I can explain this tendency, but that would require me to tell my personal story, which will take a while. When I decided to quit NS, that was one such rash action. It was prompted by my mother catching me debate about politics with Xentherida when I should have been doing my homework. I had NS taken away for the day, but through that I had this emotional-driven urge to quit NS entirely. In truth, though, it was a bad idea to quit NS fully- I didn't have a role there that was as taxing and work-filled as others' and Flem told me about the restricted access thing.
Yesterday was my first NSless day in a while. I finished my homework after the 30 minute break on the new schedule I had written for my daily life, and then my father came home and I was totally free of work, but I had nothing to do. I tried talking to my RL friend, but he was probably busy with other stuff (from what I know about him he was also playing a game by himself) Then I tried reading, but I had already read the book in question, so it was boring. Then, I watched Miracle with my dad to kill time (by the way, Miracle is a great movie. If you haven't seen it, SEE IT.)
I still had free time, though. As well, my school's golf club does not even happen during the winter, and before today I thought I could do that as an activity. Plus, yesterday I was thinking about NS ALL DAY. Then I realized that totally quitting something you have been doing a lot for a while is just as bad as doing it too much. Everything in moderation is good. So I realized the best way to be less attached to NS is to just play it less and not make it a priority. As Flem said, if I wanted he could block access to NS for my account. I think that from 7:30 AM to 5 PM on weekdays that would be great. Flem, if you could do that, please, that'd be great.
I also personally plan to only play the game during scheduled free times if there is Absolutely. Nothing. Else. To. Do. and I won't play it during the day on weekends at all. Probably not night either because of TES V: Skyrim, which is, like, the best game ever. As I said, NS is a fun game for me and I don't want to not play it, but I don't want to play it too much so it gets in the way of my life. So I am going to have the best of both worlds so I can have enjoyable RL connections and activities as well as fun game time when I can't do anything else. In short, everything in moderation- I am self-restricting a fun activity that I like so that it is what it should be- a hobby and not a joblike obligation, or atleast something seeming like an obligation. Other people on the game already do this (some have social gatherings, others have work) Already I am closer to my friends.
I think, therefore, that this is best for me as a person. And also, last week and before I played NS way more than I intend to now, and yet during last week and the week before last week my grades skyrocketed. As well, I feel like if I have NS still present and I show restraint, rather than having it not present, I will actually become less addicted as a person and I will accomplish what I wanted to accomplish through all this, which I stated before. (Having NS be a hobby and not seeming like a joblike obligation)
In short, I'm back, but NS won't be a priority for me anymore. Also, I won't become a citizen again for the time being, since I can focus entirely on RP. I will become a citizen again at a later time.