Okay, fine, I admit it. I have ulterior motives for making out other than just making you feel better. But I try not to seem like a creepy e-stalker, and therefore I avoid things via email that seem to be...blatant pick-up lines. Something like that, yeah. And I would have MENTIONED your dashing good looks, if I'd actually SEEN them. So don't be gettin' all indignation station on me when the fact that I didn't say I'm totally crushing on you is - in part - largely your fault. LOL. So there.
And yes, I did just say "indignation station." No, I don't know why. And, no, I don't associate with anyone else who talks like that. I made it up right there and then. On the spot! It's so much more fun to say than something dumb and boring like "defensive." I think you should start saying it too. Then we'd be even cooler than we already are. If that's even humanly possible.
See, I'm just here to help people learn vicariously. Don't go for the trashy girls. They're always over-rated and usually taste funny. No, you don't get to hear the story behind that. At least, not today. I'm glad that I can be helpful and supportive. It's a position that I prefer to be in, and if I could make money on it, I'd probably do it as a job. Maybe I'll be a psychologist or something. Everyone's always telling me how empathic... (empathetic? I think "empathetic" should be a word. It means "I relate to people AND it's sad." Ha! I'm hilarious. How do you people function around how funny I am?! -=wink=- ) ...I am, and I think I might actually be pretty dang good at it. Unless I have to listen to creepy guys tell me about weird sex dreams, in which case, I'd be REALLY good at it - I mean, quit.
Stick with the nerd hotties. You have a wealth of things about you that they'd find desirable, and you'll be happier with one of thems in the long run. Just make sure she's awesome and has like, the Star Wars Empire insignia as a tattoo. Or a Ninja Turtle (preferrably Donatello) on her hip so that you can see his face peeking over the top of her jeans. If I ever decide to get a tat, that's what I'd get... at the very least a Pink Floyd prism between my shoulderblades. Anyway, yes. Nerd hotties. I don't see you having any trouble making them totally fall for you. As long as you like them back, then go f'rit.
Let's see...what's next on the list -=scrolls down=- Ah, yes. ***** and *** are one and the same. And it's all good. I think we're actually getting along rather well. It's like, he turned the whole thing into one big lie, and I realize that I hate the fact that he's a liar, but he can be a good friend, even if he's a sucky bf and a rampant womanizer, so things are...fine. Dandy, even.
I love that Lily Allen song. Points for you.
******** sounds like the too-good-to-be-true type. I mean, I'M starting to like her, and I'm a GIRL! And I don't mean that in a weird way. I just mean that (me being empathetic again) if I were a guy, she'd drive me crazy. And I feel for ya, man. I totally do. Your infatuation with her reminds me of how I am with my friend Steve. If he asked me to marry him in the next five minutes, I'd say yes without even skipping a beat. He writes music review articles for a bunch of online magazines for a living, he's an amazing musician. He draws. He's a film nut. He's a game-a-holic. He's hilarious, tall, dark, stunningly handsome, and he's like my best friend. The only problem is, well, he's one of the guys I've known since I was 9, and I'm like his sister. I'm his emotional wife. I'm his one-woman support group. He comes to me with all his girlfriend problems and complains that they're not more like me. But we've never dated. He is the light and frustration of my frickin' life.
Here's the plan. My dad has ties with the Russian mafia. I'll see what we can do by way of a hitman for the barman/lawyertype this ******** chick is wastin' time with that would be better spent being with you. Then you can play the pillar of strength and consolation. And then you guys can name your first kid after me. Good plan? Good plan.
"a guy will cut off his best mates wang if he thinks it'll give him more of a chance with a hottie, and any guy that says different is trying to get into your pants, or has never had a chance wth a hottie before."
Hah! I am fascinated with your way of thinking, and would like to subscribe to your newsletter. It's true though, I do give them too much credit. Mostly because I've been relating my interactions with the guys lately to my two girl friends (the two who I actually count as friends - I dunno, I just don't get along with girls all that well, they're stupid and confusing and weird) and they've SO COMPLETELY overanalyzed every little tenet of what happens when I'm hanging with my boys that me thinking they're trying not to tread on each other's toes when it comes to me is the simplest, most rational of the reasons Andrea and Jodie have thrown my way. Seriously, the female mind must function solely on probabilities, because it sure as hell never funtions on logic. Unless you're me, of course. But I'm exceptional, so that's to be expected.
I always wanted to be a zoology major when I was a kid. And then I wanted to be a marine biologist, then a editorial columnist, then a National Geographic photojournalist, and now I just want to be a hermit poet and publish books through the mail for a living. And have a monkey. And a huge salt-water aquarium/pool in my basement that I can play with my sea otters in. Because I'm going to have pet sea otters when I grow up if it KILLS me. I always thought it would be awesome to study primates and such. Jane Goodall was one of my heroes growing up. I think I'll add you to my list of heroes as well, for enlightening me about capuchin pidgeon-ensnarement methodology. That's fascinating, that is. It reminds me of all those NOVA documentaries I'd watch as a kid. My favorite TV is documentaries like National Geographic stuff and the Discovery Channel. Always has been. ANYWAY, let's move on before I share even more irrelevant personal information. LOL.
Did you ever see that Penny Arcade strip about Kingdom Hearts 2? The one with Winnie the Pooh? I'll have to hunt that down on my break and send the link to you. You'll giggle. It made me laugh.
I'll definitely look into that Wii thing for ya. I'd definitely be up for helping you score one. (Not in THAT way. Hah. Innuendo.) I'll do some research and let you know what I find out. Because I'm so cool like that.
The things you've said about ******* make me want to punch her in the teeth. She reminds me a lot of an ex-boyfriend's current girlfriend. There seem to be a lot more girls like them than I realized. The kind who totally expect you to be there for them and do everything to support and love them, and then when you ask them for the smallest bit of understanding, they explode at you or act like you've asked them to trade their right arm in for a "Red vs. Blue" DVD. I just don't understand that.
It makes sense that you don't want her suddenly out of your life. In relationships like that, it's hard to just put them away. Because you've invested so much of *yourself* into them that getting rid of them makes it feel like it was all just such a waste. And that's so hard to do. That's what my problem's always been...like, I can't just never see a jerk bf again because it means that all the time and agony and emotions and words and everything is just...gone. And those holes are the ones that no one wants in the fabric of their failures and successes. So then you try to be friends, and friends - for me - always often just makes it weird and you end up hating each other more. Except for the times when you can still be friends, and by being friends you see them in a different light than you did when you were together, and you realize things about them that you'd never realized and finally one day you understand that they aren't just that empty relationship-failure hole, because the relationship wasn't a failure - it was just a thing that you tried and didn't quite like and now you know why. And the hole gets filled up and smoothed over and THEN you can move on.
"Finally there is clarity. And there is purpose after all, but every night ends the same as I'm collapsing once more by your side. Finally there is clarity. This tiny life is making sense. And every drop numbs the both of us, but I alone am staggering."
...It's crazy that you mentioned DeathCab, because I've been listening to them all day, and reading your email made me feel all TwilightZone-ish, because I totally understand what you mean about how beautiful their songs are, and how what they sing isn't sad just to be sad, it's the kind of sad that's necessary to understand just how good being happy is. It's a sad that looks forward, and reminisces on previous experience with sweetness, but never just sits and dwells on itself. I've been listening to their album "The Photo Album" which is probably my favorite of all of theirs, and I had to share those "Debate Exposes Doubt" lyrics with you, since they fit so well to what we were talking about in the previous paragraph AND they're DeathCab lyrics, which is...cosmic in the way it all intermeshes. AND because it's a gorgeous song, and I love it. So... yes. Which album of theirs have YOU been listening to?
I think that'd kick ass to be able to Mario Kart with you online. That'd be so much fun! I should totally get a Wii. If I get another job soon, then I might even have the money to do it. I really just need to get a computer of my own, though. But then I'd be a PC gamer, and probably not a very good one, since it's been so long, and PC gamers are ruthless. Especially when they find out you're a girl. >_<
Yay music! I love the songs you sent. They're awesome. Almost as awesome as you. And congrats on knowing what a plebicite was. I remember it because of the word "plebian." and ... ... ... I dunno what I was going to say there. My brain just stalled.
Heh. ... ... ... <-- those ellipses make me think of the King of All Cosmos from Katamari Damacy. ... ... ..."The sky is not pretty at all... ... ...It's rough and masculine... ... ...Possibly sweaty." That game is only good for playing when you're high or sleep-deprived and up really *really* late with friends. Then it's SUPER FUNNY.
Speaking of super funny, we're scanning Mexican Border Crossing records of immigrants from 1903 at work today. On all the cards, there's a line that says "Distinguishing characteristics:" I just saw a card for a woman named Cecilia. Guess what her distinguishing characteristic is? It says: "Looks like a man."
I'm still laughing about it.
Rock the house,
Chelicious
P.S. Sorry it's so FREAKING LONG! I do what I can to keep myself entertained at work, and I figured you'd like to join in. Apparently emailing you keeps me entertained. And I like that. It's a good thing.