Throughout their childhood and teenage years, Thibault and Timothée shared a room, despite the Royal Palace having dozens of rooms. Sharing a room just felt natural to them. When they were children, they even shared a large bed; but when they became teenagers, they had separate beds, each on the opposite corners of the room nearest the windows.
That night, Thibault and Timothée retired to their shared room, a room they had left as teenagers and are now coming back to as adults. After what happened earlier that dinner, both of them felt… awkward with each other – for the first time in their life. It seemed that night was not the right time for banter or even speaking with each other. Had the months of separation changed them?
The twins went to their beds. It was the first time in months that they’d be sleeping in their comfortable beds.
“Good night, T-Bo,” Timothée told his brother as he turned off his beside lamp.
“Good night, T-Mo,” Thibault replied.
But despite lying in the soft cushy bed he was longing for, Thibault couldn’t sleep. The thoughts of what transpired earlier still ran in Thibault’s mind.
I will be the crown prince? I will be the King of Saintonge? I am not prepared. What if I fail my country? What about my future? What about Timothée? What about… Thousands of whatabouts swirled in Thibault’s head. Thibault tossed and turned on his bed, unable to give his mind and body a rest.
After what seemed to be hours of thinking, Thibault heard his brother speak.
“Thibault, are you still awake?”
Thibault turned towards the direction of his brother’s bed. “I’m sorry, Timothée, I couldn’t sleep.”
Timothée turned on his bedside lamp. From the faint mellow light, Timothée could see his brother’s sad face, creased with worry.
“Was it father’s announcement earlier?” Timothée sat up.
Thibault nodded and then also sat up on his bed.
Timothée let out a sigh. “I knew it.” Timothée then stood up and strode to his brother’s bed. “It’s fine with me. Don’t worry about me bro.”
Thibault was puzzled.
Timothée looked at his twin brother in the eye. “I’m not jealous,” Timothée said. “There, I said it.” Timothée sat beside Thibault. “I appreciate you fighting for me, even when we were seven years old.”
Thibault was surprised at Timothée’s recollection. Thibault never told Timothée about his conversation with his parents when he was almost seven years old. Thibault could still vividly remember that summer July day.
Their father was just crowned King a few months before; his mother was pregnant with Baudouin-Alexandre. His parents, now the King and Queen of Saintonge, sent for Thibault, and only for Thibault. His father sat Thibault on his lap.
“Thibault, you are turning seven in two months,” his father said.
“We would be having a party for you,” his mother added.
Of course, the seven-year-old Thibault was happy.
“We will have birthday gifts for you, surprises that you will get on your birthday. But we have this one gift that is so special and important, you have to prepare for it. And so that you can prepare for it, today we will tell you what it is.”
“What is it, father?”
“We will be giving you the title of Crown Prince of Saintonge.”
“The Crown Prince?”
“Yes, Crown Prince,” the king said. “I had it, but I don’t need it anymore, so I will be giving it to you.”
“It comes with all the wonderful perks,” the queen added, trying to make it palatable to the young Thibault.
“Are you giving it to Timothée too?” Thibault asked.
The king and queen exchanged glances, unsure of what their son’s question meant.
“No, Thibault,” the king told his son, “Timothée will not be getting the Crown Prince.”
“That’s not fair,” Thibault told his parents. Of all the possible reactions the royal couple thought their son would have, this was the one they least expected. Thibault continued, “What I have, Timothée should have.”
“Thibault,” the king said, “there’s only one Crown Prince.”
“Can I share it with Timothée?” Thibault asked.
“No, you cannot share it.”
“Then I don’t want it, father,” Thibault told his parents and then stood up.
“Thibault, refusing gifts is bad.” The king’s patience that day seemed to be thin.
“But your gift is not fair,” Thibault said. “Why only I can have it? Why can’t I share it? You said I should share my things. I want to share it with Timothée.”
“Being the Crown Prince is a special thing, Thibault,” the queen told her son. “You are special.”
“And Timothée is not special?” Thibault was starting to get teary-eyed, whether from anger or sadness his parents couldn’t tell. His parents took the cue. They dropped the subject, but told Thibault not to tell anyone about the conversation. But…
“How did you know about the conversation?” Thibault asked his brother.
“Mother told me,” Timothée answered. “I thought you won’t keep any secret from me, Thibault.”
“When did you know about it?”
“Since we were thirteen.”
Thibault sighed. It was the only secret he kept from his brother, and here came his mother ruining it for him. “I’m sorry, Timothée.”
Timothée smiled. “I’m just teasing you. I understand why you had to keep it a secret.” He put an arm around his brother’s shoulders. “Thank you… for thinking and caring about me.”
Thibault looked at his brother.
“Honestly,” Timothée continued, “when I learned about what you did, I loved you even more. Even though you probably thought ‘Crown Prince’ was just a ‘special thing’ and didn’t know much about it. It’s already in my heart as your brother and your twin, but after learning all about it, I promised myself that I always be here for you. Like we always say…”
“…
we’re in it together,” Thibault completed the sentence as he sniffled a bit.
“You crying?”
“I’m just… glad to have a brother like you.”
Timothée tried to lighten the mood. “Always remember, T-Mo is always here for T-Bo!”
“So don’t worry about me, Thibault,” Timothée repeated. “I’m okay with you being the Crown Prince and the King. It’s your birthright. It’s your destiny. You deserve it.”
“Thank you,” Thibault muttered, and then paused for a bit. “To be honest, you being envious never crossed my mind, but…” Thibault’s words trailed off. He couldn’t understand Timothée’s reaction to their father’s announcement.
Is he just saying these things for show? That’s not Timothée – he says what he thinks. But then again, could his brother have changed?
“But…?” Timothée tried to read Thibault’s face. After a few moments, he finally came around to reading Thibault’s thoughts. “Are you concerned about my reaction earlier during the dinner?”
Thibault nodded.
“I was worried for you bro,” Timothée said. “More than anything. I know how you think. You are apprehensive about the idea and the position and your future. Being crown prince means you have to drop everything and dedicate yourself to the position and to the country. Am I right?”
“You took the words out of my mouth bro,” Thibault told his brother. “That is what I feel right now… I was thinking that I want to go to college, get a degree, find a job… you know, stuff other people do. I know that the idea of being King was hammered into my head since I was a child, but I never thought it will be
this real
today. It was a vague idea I kept on pushing to the back of my mind, as something that will happen
someday, not
now. And when that happens, I have to drop the life I charted for myself and go down the path laid down for me.”
“And make babies,” Timothée said naughtily. “And spare princes like me.”
“You know, Spare Prince, why don’t you just make them for me?”
“I’d be glad to,” Timothée laughed. “But seriously,” Timothée said as he sobered up, “if you need help in royal things or whatever, T-Mo will be here to help you.”
“Are you sure about that?”
“Positive. One thousand percent.”
“Can I ask you to stand in for me in visits and speeches?”
The twins laughed. The twins look so much alike that Timothée can probably stand in for Thibault in an official function and get away with it.
“Just prepare my script beforehand,” Timothée said.
“Haha, sure I will bro,” Thibault replied. And then Timothée noticed a mischievous twinkle in Thibault’s eye. “You know…” Thibault began.
“Uh-oh, I don’t like where this is going,” Timothée remarked as Thibault smiled at his brother. “I know what that smile means.”
“You know, Timothée, why don’t we just make the stand-ins official?”
“Ugh, I knew it.”
“Remember you promised. We always say…”
“…
we’re in it together,” Timothée completed the sentence with semi-reluctance. “So, what are you thinking? I hope it’s not what I am thinking.”
Thibault grinned. “You see, I was thinking, why don’t we both become Crown Princes of Saintonge?”
Timothée sighed. “I was so expecting you to say that.”
“We’re twins, remember? We think alike.” Thibault elbowed his brother. “What do you think about the idea?”
Timothée paused to ponder his brother’s proposal. Timothée’s mind wanted to say no. But Timothée’s heart wanted to say yes. Despite him being apprehensive about the role himself. Despite knowing that he’d probably react the same way if he were in Thibault’s shoes. Despite knowing that he also has to make the same sacrifices Thibault has to make. Despite knowing that such an idea was… out of this world.
“You don’t… like the idea?” Thibault’s smile had all but evaporated from his face.
“You’re crazy, T-Bo,” Timothée commented. “And since I’m your twin brother…” Timothée’s mind and heart engaged in a battle within him. Only one would win. “… I’m also crazy like you. I like your idea.” Timothée decided that he will stand with his twin brother. Going through everything together was their life for the past nineteen years. Timothée will go through everything together with Thibault even for the next ninety years.
“That’s wasn’t a joke idea, T-Mo,” Thibault said in a more serious tone.
“I know it wasn’t a joke idea,” Timothée replied. “Now, we just have to plot out the specifics. Obviously we have to tell father. He might have to get Parliament involved. Then there is the question of who will be the King.”
“Both of us, obviously,” Thibault answered. “I know that this might be unprecedented in Saintonge, but we’ll work it out.”
“Who will sign documents or do the royal stuff? You
and I, or you
or I?”
“If we both have to do it, it kinda…”
“… defeats the purpose,” Timothée completed. Their minds really work at the same wavelength. “Plus, if only one of us is needed, you can focus on your stuff while I take care of royal things; and vice versa. Gives us time for ourselves too. I like it.”
“Next question is who will inherit the throne,” Thibault said.
“Whoever is the first grandson we’re able to give to father,” Timothée replied.
“Good idea,” Thibault agreed. “If you are able to have a son first, then it’s your son who will inherit. If I have a son first, then it’s my son.”
“Unless they’re twins too,” Timothée added.
“They’d probably make a similar arrangement if we’re successful with this.”
“Do you think this would cause a dynastic quarrel in our agreement regarding succession?”
“The King of Saintonge is very much powerless right now,” Thibault said. “I doubt people – much less our sons – are going to fight over such a powerless title that comes with lots of responsibility.”
“That’s true actually,” Timothée remarked. “People think being the monarch is glamorous and enjoyable, but it actually entails a lot of… sacrifices.”
The twins fell silent as they the thoughts of the future sacrifices they had to make for the people and the country. But that was their life, their destiny which they could not avoid.
“Thank you for understanding me,” Thibault said to his brother.
“Anytime bro.”
“Should we to talk to father tomorrow?”
“Agreed, let’s talk him tomorrow. But for tonight, Thibault, you should sleep.”